And...... Relax
It's the end of my first week working for my new employer, a Surrey-based charity and limited company. I've been employed as the Resource Centre Manager, which basically means that I am responsible for the upkeep and development of the building, facilities and IT provision. An excellent opportunity!
I had a trial-by-fire as we had a power cut on Monday afternoon to deal with and I've learnt so much this week. It's OK though as it seems to be filling the space that was left by my "brain-dump" that seemed to happen as soon as my redundancy package was confirmed with my previous employer. I've purged all of that unnecessary information, so there seems to be plenty of room for new! There was no handover with the previous incumbent as he may have left under a bit of a cloud, but I'm not sure about that. None of my business really anyway.
But! It does mean that I've needed to be very much a self-starter and not worry about being thrown in at the deep end. Luckily for me, that's never been a problem as long as people, whilst expecting me to hit the ground running, still expect me to take some time to learn everything that I need.
I'm reporting straight to the Chief Executive and she said she was very pleased with my first week's progress and what I proposed to work on whilst she's on leave, so I guess it's a case of so far so good!
I have a bit of an issue with my attitude that I need to work on though. I keep having to tell myself that there's nothing here that I won't be able to do. There are sides of the building maintenance work that I'm not experienced on, but they know that, I've not misrepresented myself at all. I guess I'm feeling like a bit of a "Pretender" at the moment, I mean, what am I doing as a member of the Senior Management Team??!! What makes it even more difficult is that I really like where I'm working, it's situation, the people (so far) and the job - I seem to be scared to allow myself to like it too much in case it's suddenly whipped away from me.
It's wonderful to have time in the morning - I've been drinking tea before getting ready for heaven's sake! I've been commuting for considerable distances for so many years now that I'd forgotten what it's like to leave your house and be at work twenty-five minutes later, and that's going at an unhurried pace.
I've got a big, fat confidence issue here. The problem is that if it's left unchecked, it may be a self-fulfilling prophecy as nervousness will impair my judgement, affect my ability to learn and remember, and make me seem nervous and unsure when at the moment I need to project calm and confidence.
I wish I had time this weekend to take myself off somewhere quiet and deal with this, but sadly it seems not to be. Well, they say that realising there's a problem means you're half-way to solving it don't they?
I had a trial-by-fire as we had a power cut on Monday afternoon to deal with and I've learnt so much this week. It's OK though as it seems to be filling the space that was left by my "brain-dump" that seemed to happen as soon as my redundancy package was confirmed with my previous employer. I've purged all of that unnecessary information, so there seems to be plenty of room for new! There was no handover with the previous incumbent as he may have left under a bit of a cloud, but I'm not sure about that. None of my business really anyway.
But! It does mean that I've needed to be very much a self-starter and not worry about being thrown in at the deep end. Luckily for me, that's never been a problem as long as people, whilst expecting me to hit the ground running, still expect me to take some time to learn everything that I need.
I'm reporting straight to the Chief Executive and she said she was very pleased with my first week's progress and what I proposed to work on whilst she's on leave, so I guess it's a case of so far so good!
I have a bit of an issue with my attitude that I need to work on though. I keep having to tell myself that there's nothing here that I won't be able to do. There are sides of the building maintenance work that I'm not experienced on, but they know that, I've not misrepresented myself at all. I guess I'm feeling like a bit of a "Pretender" at the moment, I mean, what am I doing as a member of the Senior Management Team??!! What makes it even more difficult is that I really like where I'm working, it's situation, the people (so far) and the job - I seem to be scared to allow myself to like it too much in case it's suddenly whipped away from me.
It's wonderful to have time in the morning - I've been drinking tea before getting ready for heaven's sake! I've been commuting for considerable distances for so many years now that I'd forgotten what it's like to leave your house and be at work twenty-five minutes later, and that's going at an unhurried pace.
I've got a big, fat confidence issue here. The problem is that if it's left unchecked, it may be a self-fulfilling prophecy as nervousness will impair my judgement, affect my ability to learn and remember, and make me seem nervous and unsure when at the moment I need to project calm and confidence.
I wish I had time this weekend to take myself off somewhere quiet and deal with this, but sadly it seems not to be. Well, they say that realising there's a problem means you're half-way to solving it don't they?
posted by Catherine at 17:16
1 Comments:
Relax Cath! You always seem to believe that you don't deserve the good things that happen to you... You have worked hard to get this & it sounds like you're giving it your all! Enjoy it!
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