Clarity

I've noticed that my posts are becoming infrequent again. It's not that there's not a lot of things on my mind, there are, believe me, a lot of issues on my mind.

But. I'm reminded of the poor people who write unguardedly on their blogs concerning their employers and their opinions of their employers, and sometimes even the dodgy activities of their employers. I'm perfectly happy with the idea that maintaining anonymity on the internet is next to impossible, so I don't even bother to try. It's much nicer not having to constantly self-censor, and watch what you link where, and try to maintain different personae. I just can't be bothered with all that. So all I have to do is to make sure that I keep in touch with myself and make sure a persona isn't encouraged to come through anywhere that isn't consistent with the whole. Seeing as I'm so changeable depending on my moods and the weather and the moon phase etc etc etc that's never been a problem.

But so much of what is going on at the moment is linked directly to work, and who I work for, and more importantly who I want to work for and why, that I'm struggling to have any space in my brain for much else. I can't write openly about it either, as what's happening is commercially very sensitive, and I wouldn't want to be one of the people taken to task for blogging about their employer - wouldn't do much for my personal marketability. That kind of notoriety won't pay my bills!!

I'm cycling still of course, more than ever now, and it's keeping me balanced, but I've not been taking my camera out and that's daft. I keep forgetting it. Maybe I need to immerse in what I'm doing for a while, and put less emphasis on recording? Perhaps. The urge to take my camera is coming back now, so that time must be nearly over.

Very soon my employment issue will resolve - I'm taking a brave plunge. I hope it works out well. In the meantime, I'll take this writers' block as a warning shot across my bows.