Clarity

At the beginning of the Winter I was all set for battle against the encroaching darkness and to stop living life as if I was waiting for something to happen, wasn't I? Well, three months on I find that in the main, the dark isn't what is stopping me - the damp is! I know, I know, it sounds at best weak and at worst bizarre. But I have no wet-weather gear yet (cash is the deciding factor) and I'm not worried about the cold. I have been out on my bike when the grass and countryside have been freezing around me. Quite literally as well - I've set out with the grass and pavements wet, have watched both start to glitter as I go along, and then the whole place looks like the top of a Christmas Cake by the time I get home. So beautiful. I won't lie - numb feet and face has been an issue, and I've needed a large supply of tissues with me at all times....! But the crunchy, frosted feel of the world is worth it, and the privacy! No-one else seems to want to go out when it's like this - so it feels as if I have the whole area to myself.

The rain and damp is defeating me. So I've turned to another possible area to fill the evenings in which I can't cycle, so preventing me from slipping back into apathy. Ian and I are both doing a three month course designed to increase creativity and to deal with the causes of creative blocks. It's about one working day's worth of work per week - more if you put more into it. We're into Week 2 now, and personally I'm finding it very good. It's not for the faint-hearted though I can tell you - I've been dealing with some personal demons - and they have teeth! In the words of Vinnie Jones, "It's been emotional.".

I'm getting the urge to start making things again already - all I need now is some more sunshine and blue sky during the day like today and yesterday, and I'll be back on track I think.